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I've heard You're able to change lives
Will You change mine?

I've heard You're able to heal hearts
Will You heal mine?

I've heard You're able to touch souls
Will You touch mine?

I've heard You're able to reach the lost
Will You reach for me?

You are the Lord of all creation
Yet You are my Father
You are the Son of God
Yet You are my friend
The heavens is your throne and Earth your footstool
Yet You live in me
At the sound of Your voice the storm be calmed
Yet you whisper to my heart

If only
Your heart be my heartbeat
Your will my desire
Your strength my comfort
Your l♥ve my hope
What else could i want?

An illusion? Maybe not.
It is dark now
I keep stumbling, falling, failing, almost giving up
I won't
Because I know the dawn will come
When i can say
The Lord and i, we made it through.

Today,

I wish I could just stop studying, for real.

Dear ____,

You know the words
I'm dying to speak.

You know the life
Behind the mask.

You know the song
Bursting from my soul.

You know the heart
That reaches out.

If I lie, would You forgive me?
If I fall, would You catch me?
If I walk away, would You chase me?
If I turn back, would You still be there?

It's always YES, You say.
But sometimes
I wish you'd just say NO;
Because I'm tired of the YES.

I keep begging You to let me go
But still You hold me tight
Somehow You know
I'll give it all to You one day.

I leap for sorrow
Cry for joy
Because I know
You love me
And maybe I do love You too.

M&Ms.

As usual, I ate M&Ms today. There were 88 M&Ms in one of the many packets I had. That was how bored I got.

Few days later, I ate more M&Ms. One packet had 22, another had 24, another had 17(!!), and another, 18. Swindlers.

of all things cool.

my mum owns and uses an ipod. she can also listen to songs with swear words without wincing. she sms-es pretty fast. we communicate using email. she sends me e-cards. she has and uses MSN Messenger, although i'd never wanna add her to my friends list. but God bless the day she facebooks. thn, i'd know i've seen all things possible.

and oh, by the way, i am practically a carbon copy of her. how cool is that!

back to basics.

Within the one month here at Purdue, I have developed my worst wake-up moment. Its just like a nightmare, except it happens the moment I open my eyes in the morning. Every morning I jolt awake wondering if I missed my 7:30 am class, AGAIN. Sometimes, I am right though. That totally makes my day.

blob.

dammit! i missed class today, again. and it has only been 3 weeks.

why is so hard to do stuff i don't like? maybe i should just brush up on my guitar and piano, thn hit the streets. you never know what life would surprise you with.

it's dinnertime.

sisters always make you feel better. especially when you're thinking of quitting, and thinking of the consequences, and thinking that maybe you had a reason to stay, and maybe you were meant for something else, and maybe its just a journey you have to get on with. sisters give you the simplest options to along with life and whatever you're looking at. when you're depressed, they somehow manage to look on the bright side and so you smack your head and think 'why didnt i think of that before?'. they make you laugh your heads off although you were just feeling the downest of down just a minute ago. they are always there, even if you're smiling to the world and crying inside. even if everyone else seems so far away. they're always there. well, most of the time.

english 101.

you know what i miss about malaysia?
being able to converse with different people in different languages. most of all, being diverse.
im starting to get tired of english, well, american english that is.

smartwater.

early to bed, early to rise.
early to class, everything's nice.

shivering to school
sweating to class
everything's cool
if i'd just take the bus.

silly i know, im just bored, and hungry (as usual).