I don't want to sleep at night because I am afraid of my dreams.

Again.

I love my country, but I am not allowed to love it the way I should and want to - with bursting pride and patriotism.

Instead, I love it in that I secretly want to believe it will get better, and try to turn away from the blinding negatives and constantly remind myself to cherish the positives - like the food and Ahli Fiqir.

I don't count, I cherish.

I know they say boys come and go but friends are forever.

It seems to me that friends come and go. So it must be that this thing we have is forever.

This time, when I say I love you, I mean it.

Because,

I never fell head over heels in love with you - everyday, I love you more and more.

And,

I don't love you because... . I love you just because.

If I loved you for a reason, that would mean if the reason was gone, my love would be gone too.

Maybe this is how perfect love is, after all.